Needing a venue

I lately feel that there is so much I want to say to so many people. I feel I am constantly having to bite my tongue, and hold back what I really want/need to express. I know that it will eventually come out in one form or another, so I am going to unload a sample here, just to do it.

I would really like to know what kind of friends I have sometimes.  I would like to be able to hold a real conversation with some people.  It would be nice if an ounce of respect were actually there... ever.  I find it frustrating how much happiness relies on other people granting you a moment of their time. I wish that I could go about everything solo, and be fine with that, but that's asking a little much. I find it funny that you say you will be there for me, yet I hear nothing from you for days then weeks, and I'm pretty sure that it's all just bullshit anyway. 

I need to get to that 'whatever' point and just say fuck it. Then say, fuck you.